Amber leaf

It's that photo again —

where we are lopsided,

and look like we haven't slept for days.


Those nights we trod every hit into the carpet,

flipped coasters, thumbed brown bottles,

passed I love you round

like a pack of Amber Leaf,


Your fingers clutched 

my wrists in this vortex

as we moshed on the high line

over bills and work 


Then we’d puncture the truth home

into polystyrene boxes of chips.

I’d hold your hair back

while you were being sick

over a future where

 we'd no longer need each other —


You,


the same,


for me.