A series of goodbyes

I'm up to my eyeballs with the hard stuff

losing folks, losing trust

asking what got the better of us?

Settling in to a series of goodbyes

like a western on a wet afternoon. 

and now and then I buckle at the knees, 

I long for the old guard, trip in a heartbeat. 

I see my youthful pedestal from the ground, which  lies next to yours

The social norms, the politeness, the ettiquette, leaving us in the past,

 playground.